Week 2

Well, this week hasn't been the best. I was sick and school routines had changed. In week two, I definitely didn't need for my routine to change. It was something I had already gotten used to. Oh well, I cannot dwell on the past and say what might have happened. To move on, I am excited that lost 2 more lbs, just by cutting back on what I eat. I messed up with my fitness pal account.. well sort of. I just didn't log in my stuff every day like I had been. However, that will start back today. The other day I was trying to think of other ways to exercise instead if just going walking or going to the gym to lift weights. So... I thought that I would tryout my softball skills and see if I could get my family together to play some softball. I would happy if anyone else wanted to join. I haven't figured out how we will do this with the softball/baseball season coming up. I guess just take the field whenever it is open. If no field is open, we always have the front/back yard. I would also like for someone to teach me how to play tennis. I think it would be fun. Obviously you can tell by reading that I get very bored with the same exercise all the time. I also love to dance so I thought about going to some Zumba classes with some friends. I have said this is so hard to do with all my school that I have going on, but I am getting over the school. I have 5 weeks left and then another 3 weeks called Maymester. Then two days a week in June, then I am finished with classes and prepared to move on to student teaching!! It feels so great. Okay, I think that is enough rambling for now. I'm happy. I think 2 lbs is okay for this week. It will be more next time I post. I just know it!!

Week One

Oh me! Well it has been a hard, interesting week. I never knew how much I really ate until I started looking at the calories and figured out that I shouldn't be eating that anymore. I started a My Fitness Pal account and it has actually helped me more than anything. All I have to do is log in how much I eat and how much I exercise and it calculates everything for me. In one week, I have lost 4 lbs. Those were the hardest 4 lbs. of my life I think. I had told a few people that if I didn't lose like 10 lbs. within the first week I was just going to quit. Well, I'm not. I can't. In one week, I have learned how to count my calories and to not starve myself. I even learned that I don't have to give up everything that is good. I can still fit good food into my diet. I have a lot of support that I never really knew I had, and for that I am truly grateful. Let's pray and hope I lose more than 4 lbs this next week :) I sure am trying. I know this is a shorter post but I hope to update by midweek this next time. Thanks everyone for reading and supporting me as I continue my "Journey to a Dream."

The Beginning

So, this is the beginning of the journey to my dream. What is my dream? To be healthy. To be happy. To wear a 2 piece swimsuit, and to feel good in it. To wear all the cute clothes from American Eagle and Buckle. To not have to shop in the plus size section of a store, ever again! To run a 5K. To participate in a marathon. To travel the world. To inspire others. There are plenty more that I could list. This barely scratches the surface. My goal is lose about 120 lbs. Yes, that sounds like a lot. However, I weigh way more than I need to. My starting weight is 270.8. Am I embarrassed? Yes, I am. Extremely. I am not comfortable with what I weigh. I am not comfortable with the way that I look. I am 21 years old. I have battled weight all my life. I have high blood pressure. I have had to be put on medication for this to get it back down to what is normal. Without it, at this weight, I am at severe risk for having a stroke, which runs in my family. Diabetes also runs in my family. Some days I wonder how I even function. I don't ask for sympathy. I need support and advice. I need training. The worst parts about me are that I am lacy, I cannot motivate myself, and I am a very picky eater. I do like some vegetables and fruits, but not very many. My worst weakness is potatoes and pasta. I feel like those are near impossible to give up. But I know its what I have to do. This is beginning of it all. This is the beginning of the rest of my life. It's not going to be easy. It's going to be hard. I don't feel like I can do this myself, but I at least have to try. I have to change just about everything there is about me. I have to change the way I eat. I have to change my daily routines. I can't really change my schooling, however, fitting in exercise into my everyday life is a struggle in itself. But this will happen for me! IT ALL STARTS TODAY!!!