The Beginning

So, this is the beginning of the journey to my dream. What is my dream? To be healthy. To be happy. To wear a 2 piece swimsuit, and to feel good in it. To wear all the cute clothes from American Eagle and Buckle. To not have to shop in the plus size section of a store, ever again! To run a 5K. To participate in a marathon. To travel the world. To inspire others. There are plenty more that I could list. This barely scratches the surface. My goal is lose about 120 lbs. Yes, that sounds like a lot. However, I weigh way more than I need to. My starting weight is 270.8. Am I embarrassed? Yes, I am. Extremely. I am not comfortable with what I weigh. I am not comfortable with the way that I look. I am 21 years old. I have battled weight all my life. I have high blood pressure. I have had to be put on medication for this to get it back down to what is normal. Without it, at this weight, I am at severe risk for having a stroke, which runs in my family. Diabetes also runs in my family. Some days I wonder how I even function. I don't ask for sympathy. I need support and advice. I need training. The worst parts about me are that I am lacy, I cannot motivate myself, and I am a very picky eater. I do like some vegetables and fruits, but not very many. My worst weakness is potatoes and pasta. I feel like those are near impossible to give up. But I know its what I have to do. This is beginning of it all. This is the beginning of the rest of my life. It's not going to be easy. It's going to be hard. I don't feel like I can do this myself, but I at least have to try. I have to change just about everything there is about me. I have to change the way I eat. I have to change my daily routines. I can't really change my schooling, however, fitting in exercise into my everyday life is a struggle in itself. But this will happen for me! IT ALL STARTS TODAY!!!